Starting Again

I have been fighting the urge to get this blog up and running again, and I can't ignore the naggings in my heart and head any longer. So much has happened in the last 7 years! More children, heartache and life lessons. I never thought I could hurt so much, could love so much or be so betrayed as I have in the last few years.
I don't want this blog to be just about me- I want to inspire, motivate and share. To help others feel like they are not alone.
I've recently lost my grandfather. He was my protector along with my grandmother. Losing him, I've lost a piece of me. I will never be the same. People can heal and change but he will be missed until the end of my days.
My sweet friend Sara has just passed in a tragic plane accident and it has had a huge impact on me.
I find myself just crying, my heart aching for the loss, for her family. So many of us take friendship for granted. The last time I saw her I never thought this will be the last time!
I have a hard time understanding why people betray one another. My son and our family has been betrayed by some people we have worked closely with, people we trusted, people we worked so hard for. No this isn't a betrayal intimate in nature. It's one of pretending to be our friend just to tear us down so their own children will get ahead. My mind and nature just don't work that way, so it's hard to find peace when there's no understanding.
By writing these things down and getting them out, I'm hoping to find some peace and resolution and find some answers as to why my family keeps getting hurt in various ways.  I don't consider myself a victim. Only someone who hasn't found the answers to stop some of the pain.
I believe the choices we make can cause pain, and in order to change bad results we have to change things. Because the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result.
I'd love comments from you on how you've handled hurt and betrayal.
How have you filled the hole left by loved ones that have passed on?

I choose to find a different path. To find a way through so much pain. To love others unconditionally, and let my light shine to warm and assist those in need.
To have gratitude for the good things in life, and share that gratitude so others know they are appreciated.

Have a wonderful day!